| A Story About a Boy and a Girl |
[Jun. 5th, 2007|12:30 pm] |
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At a time several months back Paul was traveling with his friend, John, setting up circuses around the country. It was fun to hang out with John all the time. They did alot of fun things together. Mostly, though they google-eyed the women at random bars in random cities. Paul and John are both, as it turns out, single. They are attractive men, both dressing to the letter of style. Its odd that they should both be single. But, alas, they are.
Paul and John are in a city not far from home and they go to a local bar and find that there is a slot machine there that you can win real money off of. John puts in some money and actually wins a little bit. They use that money to buy a few pitchers of beer. Both get really drunk. John says its time to go home and paul slurs out that he wants Whataburger. They stop and they get some Whataburger and go back to the hotel where they are staying. John lays down on his bed and passes out while Paul pulls out the laptop and starts browsing the internet on a website called everyonesspace.com. This is where our story begins.
Paul is logged in to the websites chat system and finds a beautiful redhead and sends her a message. It says " Heyyyy! Wake up!", he waits around for a little bit and he recieves, "Why do I have to wake up?", replys the girl. They start talking and Paul discovers that the girls name is Susan.
Paul and Susan start to chatting and Paul learns that Susan has a boyfriend who is very far away. They begin to talk to Paul is told that Susans boyfriend has made a few mistakes with her and it seems as though she is disinterested in her boyfriend. Paul, as we know is single, he is also lonely. So he starts "courting" Susan. They talk all night long and by the time they are finished talking for the night John wakes up and starts getting ready for work. Paul tries to sleep for a few minutes but John won't have any of that. They go to work and Susan and Paul talk all day long as well. Not a minute goes by that they don't speak to each other. Paul is getting really interested in Susan.
Paul and John both come home and Paul continues to talk to Susan. It seems as though Susan is ready to leave her boyfriend and Paul thinks of this as a good sign for him. He decides to himself that if he plays his cards right he might be able to snag Susan for himself. Paul and Susan decide to meet and they do. Susan is more beautiful in person than on the internet. They hit it off really well and that night Paul and Susan had a little fun.
Paul and John both come from a big city where every year they have a week long festival called Drunkfest. The boys go to the big city to meet up with there other friends and enjoy themselves for a week of drunkeness. When they return home, Paul asks Susan to come to the Drunk Day festival downtown and they have a wonderful time. The three of them, Paul and John and Susan get really drunk and decided that its time to come home.
Paul and Susan get on the couch and start, doing things, and behind them on the floor is another couple. Its really interesting.
Things go along really well for a long time. They do fight quite often and each time that they fight, Paul gets more and more dissatisfied with the relationship. Then Paul starts using drugs quite often and he lets his life go to waste. He takes a job at a local resturant and ends up sleeping with a co-worker. Susan discovers this the day after it happens and confronts Paul about it. "What did you do last night?", Susan asks,"I got really messed up and stayed at home.", says Paul. Susan then asks," So who did you fuck last night?". At this point Paul starts to lie his way out of the situation. But then he thinks better of it. Paul thinks that he is smothered by Susan. He thinks that if he can some how get rid of Susan then perhaps he might be happy. What he didn't realize was that the reason he was unhappy was all the drugs that he was taking. So Paul tells Susan exactly what he did the night before. Susan gets really upset and Paul feels an odd pain inside his chest. Susan then says that there over and that shes not looking back. Paul congratulates himself on a mission accomplished. But he has an empty feeling inside.
For the next week Paul tries to lose himeself in a flurry of drinking and drugs. His life feels so empty. He wants to talk to Susan so badly but feels that he cant. One night he goes out with an old friend and they get to talking about everything and Paul comes to the conclusion that he is meant to be with Susan. He decides the next day to send her a text message and have her come over to the house and tell her how he feels. He knows that it could go one of two ways, either she will gladly take him back and forgive all his mistakes or he's lost her forever. So he sends the text.
They get together and are talking and things are seeming like they are going well. Then Susans phone rings. Paul has a bad feeling about who it might could be. She silences the call at first. But it seems to Paul that its a phone call that she cannot miss and she answers it. He watches them talk for about ten minutes or so and sees that she seems really happy on the phone. He walks off and goes somewhere to think. She texts him trying to find out where he is and he was right. It was who he thought is was. It was ex-boyfriend from far far away, Justin. Paul is heartbroken. But they continue to talk and decide to give it a second go.
Things go really well for the next few weeks. Paul backs off the drugs alot. They still fight, but not as much and Paul always seems to appologise and make sure things stay better. But he still has a sick feeling inside that something isn't quite right.
All this time, John has been away in another state starting a circus of his own. He ends up meeting a special woman while he is there which is really good for him. Her name is Jasmine. John and Jasmine have to come back to Johns' home city and tie up loose ends so that he can move nearer to his circuses. That puts Paul in a spot but he makes do. Paul and Susan go with John and Jasmine to help move things out of the house and into another.
Paul and Susan on the way home stop in a city and play in a waterfall and have a wonderful time. Although it seems as though Pauls life really isn't going well for him in many respects, in this one it seems that it is. But he still has this nagging feeling.
When Paul and Susan get home, Paul has no where to go. So he sleeps outside with the help of a good neighbor friend. While he is outside asleep he has time to think about what it is that he can do to make it in this world. He decides to move back home with one of his parents. So he and Susan pack all of his worldly possesions into the back of her car and they drive off into the sunset to find his fathers house.
When they arrive at his father's house no one is home. He looks through a window and something about the house seems wrong. Paul and Susan sit on the steps and wait on his dad to get home and they have time to have a good long talk about there relationship and have decided to take it to another level and are planning on getting married. When Pauls' father gets home finally he finds that his step mother has just left and that its a good thing that he came home. His father really needs him. Susans stay for a bit to chat and then she goes home.
Paul and his father spend some quslity time together and from time to time Susan will come over to hang out as well. It was on one of these nights that they had a conversation about what was going on in Susans' life. Paul has long suspected that he was perhaps still playing second fiddle to Justin. It comes up in their discussion that Susan is still talkin to Justine. Paul has known this for awhile and just hasn't said anything about it. It all finally comes out in the end that not only had Susan been talkin to Justine the whole time that she has been professing her love for Paul but that she still planns on going to see him when he returns from far far away. Paul is devastated.
Paul knows that if Susan goes to see Justin when he gets home that their relationship will be completely over. He knows that Susan will sleep with Justin and that he cannot stop that from happening. He tell Susan that she has to make a decsion. She has to decide right then and there who it is that she wants to be with, it seems as though she is tryin to play both ends against the middle. it doesn't work like that. Paul knows that she cannot be in love with two peple at the same time. so he tells her to choose. At that moment in time the world came to a halt for Paul and it seemed that even God himself held his breath as he waited on Susans answer. After sitting there for awhile he realizes that she has already made her choice. He starts to get out of the car and walk inside and she stops him with her tears. Susan says, "You can't my decision for me!", and Paul retorts with," You have already made your choice." He then leans in to give her a hug and tell her good bye.
Susan won't let go. She just sits there in Pauls' arms sobbing. Paul is feeling so torn. He loves this woman. He would do anything to see her happy. So he decides to play second fiddle. He tells her that she can go see Justin. and that she can have her week with him. It breaks his heart to say this. But as she has said in the past if fate wants them to be together then they will be. She tells Paul that she can't ask him to do that. She knows that its not fair to make him put his life on hold while she waits on somethings she might think is better to come along.
Paul knows this to be true. So he begs Susan with his entire heart and sould to keep him. He is in love with this girl and he doesn't want to let her go so easily. He begs and begs and pleads with her. He tells her that he has nothing to offer her but his love and that they will have a hard life together. He knows that it won't be easy but he knows that if they truly love one another then that will take care of everything. She looks into the eyes of Paul and she sees sincerity and decides at that moment to allow him into her heart fully. With this news it seems as though the entire world lets go a collective sigh of relief.
Baby, i just wanted to write this so you could see in a detailed line just how i feel ahbout you. i love you with all of my heart and i will do what ever it takes to lkeep you. i am forever yours faithfully. i do promise. our life is going to be hrad. it will be rough. but our love will take us through it all... im glad that you see now that im serious aput this. i love you with all of my heart and all of my sould and i will love you till the end of time. thats a promise i wont break. |
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| Happy |
[Feb. 26th, 2007|03:52 am] |
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Im oh so happy right now.
I just wanted to put this out in the open i guess... just to brush off any doubts... i LOVE my gf.
she makes me so happy.
some things that i like about Jen.
JEN IS:
witty
intelligent
beautiful
vivacious
courageous
a smart ass
a damn good lay
and
last
but not
least
she is my FRIEND.
i feel that jen is some one that i can go to whenever and whereever with any problem that i may have and she will sit right there though it with me, can you ask for anyhting better?
So what she thinks she looks like a whale?!
I dont
and thats ALL that fucking matters
so Jen this one goes out to you!
I love you. and i want you to know that if you need anything, want anything or anything anything all you have to do is ask and i will try my damnedest to get it for you. Making you smile just makes my day. i love that i can wake up next to you in the morning and tell you how ugli you look and you just look at me and smile and say i love you because you know that deep down i dont mean a damn thing but those insults that i throw in your direction.
Ladies, Eat you hearts out cause this woman is perfect for me
Gentlemen, BACK THE FUCK UP!!! This shit is mine and as we saw downtown the other night with the varied tussles and the random swingin beer bottles, ill fuck up anyone for crossing her.
I love you |
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[Feb. 22nd, 2007|04:20 am] |
So mardi gras has come and gone for another year... i spent it with those ppl dearest to me which was nice.
I'm in love. with a girl nonetheless. who knows where this might lead.
i have a special girl now.
and a redhead at that.
you know what they say about redheads huh?
yeah. its true. and this one is awesome
she makes me feel like im the only one in her litle world
i see her face just light up when ever i look in her direction.
I get those butterflies waiting on her to get to the house and all the time that she is with me i am alwyas smiling. its a good thing. i like it.
went to mardi gras with the boys from slidel.
boy that was an adventure. i should quit drinking lol. ive said that before though.
I did quit smoking. for the girl of course. anything to make her happy.
and at the casino, with my 4 dirty martinis i didnt have a single ciggy although the old man sitting next to me kept blowing smoke in my face lol.
i did really well.
well anyway. im gonan get back to talkin to the girl.
later kids. |
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[Jun. 8th, 2006|02:24 pm] |
Sigh.. I'm happy.
I have not been happy in a long long time.
But i am now.
and DAMN anyone for trying to get in the way of MY happiness.
I made bad choices. i know. But i made i a really good one when i got with THIS girl.
I'm tired. I'm really fucking tired of people getting in my bussines.
So THEY have been talking. The THREE of them. SECRETS all around. No one is supposed to know and im the main one.
I know though.
But i don't care.
UNLESS
UNLESS
It interferes with my happiness.
HE made me mad. I can't retailaite. I can't say anything to him. BUT
Someone has to be the Bigger man.
IDLE THREATS DO NOT FRIGHTEN ME.
My favorite all time quote... "Fighting on my space is like competing in the Special Olympics. Even if you do win, you're still retarded!"
Sigh... so becca just came by and let me see Ethan. That was a welcome change from the scenery. She hurts so bad. I can see. But i don't care.
I'm happy.
In love
With Kry
and i think that now she is happy too....
i wish ppl would leave us alone.
let us be
we dont do anything to anyone... all we do is love one another.
I'm tired of the strife.
I want her to be wholly mine.
and she is
i think
i hope
if i prayed... i would. |
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| eh i dont efin know... ill tell u in a bit |
[May. 22nd, 2006|09:28 pm] |
so. last night was extremely interseting. kelli. pukin her guts out. ila, sheen, jeanie.... swimming in the pool in bra and panties nad kristin and benjamin talking about me like i am not sittin right there.
of the things that alcohol will do to you. sigh. it was for the best though and i know that..
"im in love with a stripper"
well... shes not a stripper... but shes damn fine naked....*mental picture* oooohoohooohooo
lst night ben and kristin talked and eveidently it all came out. i left. i was nt goiung to sit there while ppl talked aout me as if i werent sittin there... and so i leave and go to our specail place and lay down and look at stars. she calls me and wonders where i am.
so i tell her.
and she comes to find me.
when she gets there we have a lil talk and then she says" you need to figgure out what you wanna do. do you just wanna fuck around with ppl?"
i didnt answer right away
that really pissed her off.
she stormed off say that my silence was a good enough answer.
i thinks she is going to liz. so i think to myself.
i no loner want becca.
i lost kristin.
i have no real reason to stay in mobile.
so i go home.
and pack.
*enter drunken kelli*
"i love oyu mark mark. why are you packog? are you an d kristin fightin? * giggle giggle*"
lol
kelli calls ben.
ben calls me.
i go to bens.
and there is kristin on bens bed.
that was a fuckin surprise.
so ben says were talkin.
i grab a beer.
casue the only way to talk is while your drunk.
we talked about alot.
and she cuddled with him alot.
he did cuddle back.
i was proud.
i was angry.
i was stupid for that.
so we talk and talk and joke and talk some more.
she and i make out.
seems to be better.
ben plays match maker.
shes texting liz.
i hate liz.
i HATE her. FUCKIN HATE her.
why?
i dinno.... but as much as i love Kristin i hate her just as much.
they start to pass. out.
its a kristin sandwich.
i see this.
makes me angry.
irrationally.
she got her back to me.
damn military and body language.
so introspective when im drunk.
there is like 2 feet wetween us. i wate till she starts snoring.
then i leave.
i go beack to our spot.
i fall asleep.
i wake up and go home.
wheres kelli?
home alone, i am.
i go to sleep. kristin calls. where are oyu mark?
im at home.
why?
are you stupid i think? lol not what i say though... im ok baby.
i love oyu.
go back to sleep.
night.
night.
i go to sleep.
i wake up. alone.
dosent like being alone.
texts kristin. she comes home. we talk and then fall asleep...
we shower and eat and start to get ready.
we re cuddling.
she says lets have sex.
i laguh.
dosent think she is serious.
so out of character. she is serious.
i miss my chance.
so i finger her.
she like that,
we have sex.
god
goddamn
fucking goddamn,
its good. its really really good.
she is amazing in bed.
even more so cause i love her na d know that she loves me.
anyway,
brandy and i talk.
she is happy for me.
the only person halfway trying to talk me out of leaving becca is my mom.
but hey
thats what parents are for.
im in love with a stripper.
some time i wish that life was like a fairy tale. and it always had ahappy ending.
but its not.
its fucked.
and we have to live it.
but we make the very best outta what we have.
i need a drink lol.
i dont know why though.
sigh. i ramble alot.
im going away now. |
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[May. 6th, 2006|02:41 pm] |
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| | elevator music | ] |
Yes. im devoting an entire entry to one woman.
am i a stalker? yes.
i think about her all the time.
she is in my every thoguht.
i get the feeling she is tryin to get out though.
can you blame her? i cant. if i was her i wouldnt have gotten in.
thats why i like her so much.
i like hr way toooo much.
i shouldn't have fallen this hard for her.
nor should it have happened this fast.
it doesnt make any sense.
im an idiot i think.
thrying to be in a relationship with her.
im too fucked up to deserve someone like her.
she is the best thing that has happened to me in a long time.
i try to hard.
this isnt healthy.
im not healthy.
she makes me happy.
is that a bad thing? to be happy?
i know i make her cry.
i know i do.
soemtimes, ive tht the L word.
no ill never day it too her
at least not this soon.
and its not so much the lover l word than it is something else alltogether.
i want her to come bcak to me.
i mis her.
i need her.
i want her.
the way she looks at me.
i miss her hittin me.
i miss kissing her.
i miss cuddling.
ya know... for most guys, it would just be about sex with some one like her.
she has an amazing body.
gorgeous.
but its not all about that. i think that she thinks it is.
id do anything for her. im trying to do alot....
sigz... i tn\hink ima make this one private.... if she read this id be in a mess.... but i needed to talk to someone.
this is all ive got. |
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[May. 4th, 2006|03:56 pm] |
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ha! so i woke up this morning and my phone was cut off... sprint does that lol they are funny that way. anywho, i called to con them into turnin my phone back on... usually works...t ey said no... i was like fuck it... of welll.... im st work now. i get a text message from.... HER........ dont have the heart to tell her that my fone was off the whole time..... that i was thinkin bout her every second. its better that she doesnt know. so i pretend to be an ass about it. i hope all is well with her.... i thik of her often... i really like LJ no one is going to rad this... not even her... she isnt that obsessed with me.... i wish she were sometimes though... i really do... last night we watched a movie. it was the movie BASIC. awesome fucking movie. highly recommend. any way she was layin in my arms...that felt really good.... im going to try and talk to her less................... wtf she just texted me.... she is pissed bout something on myspace and i have no fuckin clue. what the hell is up with her? god shes like my cocaine |
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[May. 3rd, 2006|01:13 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | in tha bed room.... | ] |
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| | the air conditioner. becca snoring. the babys dreamin. | ] |
so yeh. hi! im Mark! and im defective!
but thats ok
becasue im ok with it.
thats all that matters is that i am ok.
I am human.
I am man.
i MAKE mistakes.
im and asshole.
i like kry. to much.
i like becca. too much.
i love my son.
he is the best.
i am unique.
i am stupid.
i am smart.
too smart.
but that is me. that is who i am. that it what i recognize my self to be.
i make alot of mistakes. i am making several right now. i like her and she knows it. i cant have her though.
she is a mistake.
a welcome mistake.
last night was crazy.
why did we do it? i liked it.
i would do it again.
we are platonic.
not happening again.
that hurts me.
that we are platonic. fuck i never met plato.
i want her.
i think i need her.
i feel taht one day i could L-O-V-E her.
fuck.
thats scary.
my job sucks.
i make good money.
its not eonough.
i need more.
i have to many bills. i am overextended. im in over my head.
ad i keep thinkin about her.
i want to work at staples.
but i cant pass tha gah damn ethics test.
i want to work at the home depot.
she works there.
could i handle that/
seeing her every day day? yes.
it will all work out.
my car is in the shop. its been there for over thirty says now.
i pissed. i need a car.
i need my own place. or at least my own room.
sigh, i sould like a child.
i ramble.
i am finished. |
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